finally got back into my yoga and meditation this morning and it feels soooo good to start the day out right! now i just have to hit the gym, eat right, & head to a meeting later. oh yeah.....and dinner tonite with my new pyt! life is good!!!!

wow...i had such a great time out tonite and its great that i can do it sober. i feel really good about the direction my life is headed. i know i still have alot to accomplish but i know all things are possible if i have faith

i feel like i'm embarking on a new adventure! new job, sponsor, and the ex is less than a week away from moving out!!! yay!! and double yay!! the days lately have been very good...i'm so blessed. dan's birthday is coming up on the 10th...it's hard to believe he's been gone for 2 and a half years. my son told me last night what a difference the program has made in our relationship and with his sisters. that felt good. i'm so grateful

i feel blessed in every way possible today...i'm at peace with life! thank you Lord

i felt weird today and couldn't really focus. i don't know what it was...guess i'll re-group tomorrow and try again. it was a beautiful day and i got some things done. i'm thankful!!

i'm learning more and more just to trust God and everything will work out fine...it was a great weekend. i'm thankful for my family and friends

I'm grateful for the peace and serenity I feel today

Spending the nite with my mom. I'm very grateful for her and love her but she drives me crazy!

another day in sober paradise!! it was a good day...glad i was able to help my son a bit today and a friend as well who badly needs to get back in the program. i really need to get some structure in my life. i think that will be easier when the ex is gone and i get a job. i don't know what else to say except i'm happy today and grateful i didn't drink. i also feel at peace...thank u Lord!!

ok i've been bad about blogging the past couple of nites..sorry! it was a great weekend. went to lots of great meetings and had a chance to do some good service work. also had a chance to hang with some of my best buds in the program. i'm so grateful for lambda today and all the fantastic people i come in contact with there. i'm alone tonite at my place with my dog and the solitude feels great. although sometimes i feel like life has passed me by i know i'm wrong. dead wrong...as frankie says...the best is yet to come!!!

it was a beautiful day today. got to spend some time with my oldest daughter today. she's doing well. went to walk a friends dogs along with my own at st. thomas and checked out some cute boys! went to a powerful meeting tonite. i liked the way it was ran and heard alot of great things. met a friend from the program out and had some good clean fun w/a beautiful boy i met. going to bed way too late and getting up way too early. i'm very disappointed in the way mine and exs breakup is being handled on both our parts and im not going to participate in the negativity anymore. 2 wks to go!! yay!! i'm grateful for the path God is showing me is possible in my life!

ok i'm back from my momentary lapse of reason!!! went to visit my son today...he's a good kid. resisted smoking some of his roomies pot...it sounded good for about 1 second. funny can't think of the name of this cartoon on tv but its about the program!! oh king of the hill!! whats up with all these flaky young boys?? oh well...found out i shouldn't be dating anyway. Gods really been watching out for once again. i'm grateful for that today

beautiful day today! kept very busy. worked extremely hard in my sisters yard, yoga/AA meeting, and gym. I'm grateful today for sober life!

very good day today. was a lil depressed after a date turned into a hookup but some cake from the choc bar and a visit to lambda helped. discovered the byzantine fresco chapel in a mag and can't believe i haven't been there and it's right in the neighborhood i've been in for years. used to wait on dominique at blvd bistrot. she was a sweet lady. i'm grateful for the peace i feel in my life today and i'm always grAAteful for your comments....dAAve!!! nite

last nights cast party was great!! always fun hanging with those guys. it was sad to see frank up there on the screen. he did a great job. i know he's in a good place now. today was good as well. good noon meeting. hit the gym too. yucky weather...but that's ok. i'm grateful for all the wonderful people i've met in the program

Life is great and I'm grateful for it tonite!

it was a good day. a lil prayer and meditation followed by a meeting. had a chance to take a nice walk with the dog and have a good conversation with my son. hit the gym and took in a not so good movie with some very good friends. i'm grateful for all the wonderful things God blesses me with everyday especially my sobriety

it was a wonderful day in the neighborhood today. it was weird getting used to going about my day today as a single, sober, gay man. but i think i liked it!! lots of solitude today but i guess that's good sometime. i'm grateful today for the path that i'm being led down

it was a good day! i feel at peace today after a couple of nights of feeling down. i guess i was coming down from my trip. i realised as much as i want to feel something for someone again god is telling me i need to learn to be ok by myself first. and i'm beginning that process. i'm grateful that i had the sense, by the grace of god, to drown my sorrow in ben & jerrys the past couple of nites and not booze!!!

great weekend in austin with the lambda crowd there. had lots of fun with one in particular but felt a bit let down like when you get revved up to see a certain movie but it doesn't meet your expectations. felt somewhat down coming home so went to a meeting and rented a cute movie and had some ben and jerrys. i feel better now. good to be home. i;m grateful for my home and the people i get to share my life with

I'm having a great time in Austin and grateful I can do so sober

it really felt great at the meeting today to run into so many people that i felt close to and admired. all of whom greeted me with enthusiasm. i'm really starting to feel the we and the camaraderie of the program so often spoken of. today i am grateful to GOD for leading me to lambda and putting so many wonderful people in my life

today was a good day. i had the chance to help out a good friend, go for a long walk with my great dog, doodlebug, catch a great meeting, and hit the gym. things seem to be falling in place this week and i'm looking forward to the trip to austin this weekend. i'm grateful today that my daughter called me to ask about the program and went to a n.a. meeting. i'm very grateful for this, thank you God!!!

i'm grateful today that i didn't have to drink!!!

i was a little sad tonite thinking about how my drinking has affected my life and more importantly other people in my past. i'm glad that i may have a chance now to make amends to some of those people. but there's one person in particular who is no longer here. i wish he were here to see the change in me. maybe he can from wherever he may be. i hope so. today i'm grateful for the positive changes i'm making in my life

i enjoyed volunteering for all the festivities tonite. it was great to see all my sober peeps and raise money for a good cause. i'm looking forward to more comaraderie tomorrow! i'm very grateful for lambda today

it was a good day today! spent some time with my mom today. she has helped me out so much lately. i had a chance to show her some common courtesy today by making my bed (i spent the nite) and cleaning the kitchen after she made me breakfast and lunch. you know what...i almost didn't do it then i thought to myself what the hell is wrong with you!!??!! i guess i finally realised today i'm not a spoiled teenager anymore who deserves to be pampered because my childhood wasn't like the beaver's! i'm only 45! duh! better late than never i suppose. i'm grateful for my mom today and my program

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good day. knocked out the gym, a meeting, cooked myself a nice dinner, and cleaned the kitchen. i was kinda bummed to find out today that the financial aid i've been working on for school doesn't apply to this semester. i should have applied for the 09-10 not the 10-11. oh well....worked out for the best. wouldn't have qualified anyway cause i made too much money in 08. so now i'm way ahead of the game for the fall semester and my life should be more settled by then. i think this was God helping me out. as excited i was about school i don't think i'm quite ready. i'm watching a cute gay movie. one of the guys is an alcoholic. figures! the solitude at my apt tonite is wonderful. the ex went out. yay!! i'm grateful today for life with all it's ups and downs.

beautiful weather today=a great mood for the most part. i did get some stuff acomplished. sometimes i feel like i get stuck in a rut. i'm bored but kind of paralyzed even though i have stuff i need to get done and i know it will make me feel better to get it done. is that a run-on sentence or what?? this ex situation is grating on my nerves. i don't know how long i can live in a one bedroom apartment with someone who isn't speaking to me. i'm grateful today for my program and all that comes with it. i like the person i am slowly but surely becoming.

today was a good day. i should start trying to do this earlier. i'm so tired now i can barely type. it was a beautiful day today...i feel closer to God on days like today. went roller skating, not blading, today in memorial park. damn that was hard but good exercise. i haven't been on skates like that in a very long time. got to hang with my sober friend billy. it was good. went to a good speaker meeting..long winded but he spoke well and from the heart i believe. i even did a couple of yoga moves and went to the gym. tomorrow is my mom's birthday...it's hard to believe she'll be 78. well i guess that's already today huh? i'm grateful for my mom, sis, kids, and A.A. peeps. missing dan tonite very much. but i feel ok about it and everything else in life. it was nice and serene all by my lonesome tonite at my apartment watching a chick flick with doodlebug. good night

great day!! had some work done on the bronco, still trying to figure out this financial aid bull, ate well, yoga, gym, & talked to my cutie from austin. he's hot & sober!! it's 12:30 am and the ex is m.i.a. it's total bliss to have this solitude right now. hope he's getting laid. my dog is dreaming/barking in his sleep...so funny. i'm grateful today for my program and all the great things and people that come w/it!! like dAAve...thanks! thank u GOD for all my blessings which are many....good nite

well it's been a weird couple of days. the austin roundup was great!!! it still amazes me that so many people with a common bond get together like that and can have so much fun sober! i really want to do the right things these days and one thing i had been putting off for various reasons i finally took care of. i ended my relationship with my live in boyfriend. i knew i needed to do it for awhile. he's a great person but we're on two totally different pages. my sponsor says i need to look for my higher power in my life in this situation and every day life. i would have put the break up off longer but after coming home from the round up i just couldn't pretend anymore. so i know God is helping me with that. i know it's going to be hard to stay sober living on my own. i've been so co-dependent all my life. but i'm looking forward to the challenge and the change. today i'm grateful for everything i'm learning in my program, my sponsor, all the great people i'm meeting in the program, and my family. thanks ya'll!!!

Hello bloggees! Grateful for Austin roundup, my sponsor, Martin, mom , & SIS today!

Todays meeting reminds me of a line from the movie: as good as it gets. Don't try to sell crazy here. We're all stocked up!

so glad God led me to A.A. and Lambda

I don't know what my deal was yesterday. I just felt discombobulated. Is that really a word? I'm trying to trust God but still find myself worrying about money, my kids, my relationship, and so on and so forth. I want to accomplish so much and feel like I've already wasted too much time. This blogging is so much harder than I thought it would be. I know things will all fall in place eventually but, damnit, hurry up!!!

i just don't know.....but i know i need to find out!!!

ok i'll get better at this eventually. had a very busy day and accomplished quite a bit. registered for school, went to gym, followed my diet, A.A. meeting, and now i'm blogging. what to say??? talked to my youngest daughter today which made me very happy. worried about my son. trying to leave it all in God's hands. life is really good if you let it be.

I'm here

ok, this is my first post! had an ok day. didn't go to a meeting but i'm following my sponsor's advice by setting up this blog so i'm getting something done. got a good workout in and ate mostly healthy today. checked into going back to school, going to the campus in the morning. most importantly i guess is i didn't want to drink today!!! let's keep it that way! shall we?!?