Sunday, February 28, 2010

Life is great and I'm grateful for it tonite!

Friday, February 26, 2010

it was a good day. a lil prayer and meditation followed by a meeting. had a chance to take a nice walk with the dog and have a good conversation with my son. hit the gym and took in a not so good movie with some very good friends. i'm grateful for all the wonderful things God blesses me with everyday especially my sobriety

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

it was a wonderful day in the neighborhood today. it was weird getting used to going about my day today as a single, sober, gay man. but i think i liked it!! lots of solitude today but i guess that's good sometime. i'm grateful today for the path that i'm being led down

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

it was a good day! i feel at peace today after a couple of nights of feeling down. i guess i was coming down from my trip. i realised as much as i want to feel something for someone again god is telling me i need to learn to be ok by myself first. and i'm beginning that process. i'm grateful that i had the sense, by the grace of god, to drown my sorrow in ben & jerrys the past couple of nites and not booze!!!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

great weekend in austin with the lambda crowd there. had lots of fun with one in particular but felt a bit let down like when you get revved up to see a certain movie but it doesn't meet your expectations. felt somewhat down coming home so went to a meeting and rented a cute movie and had some ben and jerrys. i feel better now. good to be home. i;m grateful for my home and the people i get to share my life with

Saturday, February 20, 2010

I'm having a great time in Austin and grateful I can do so sober

Friday, February 19, 2010

it really felt great at the meeting today to run into so many people that i felt close to and admired. all of whom greeted me with enthusiasm. i'm really starting to feel the we and the camaraderie of the program so often spoken of. today i am grateful to GOD for leading me to lambda and putting so many wonderful people in my life

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

today was a good day. i had the chance to help out a good friend, go for a long walk with my great dog, doodlebug, catch a great meeting, and hit the gym. things seem to be falling in place this week and i'm looking forward to the trip to austin this weekend. i'm grateful today that my daughter called me to ask about the program and went to a n.a. meeting. i'm very grateful for this, thank you God!!!

Monday, February 15, 2010

i'm grateful today that i didn't have to drink!!!

Sunday, February 14, 2010

i was a little sad tonite thinking about how my drinking has affected my life and more importantly other people in my past. i'm glad that i may have a chance now to make amends to some of those people. but there's one person in particular who is no longer here. i wish he were here to see the change in me. maybe he can from wherever he may be. i hope so. today i'm grateful for the positive changes i'm making in my life

Saturday, February 13, 2010

i enjoyed volunteering for all the festivities tonite. it was great to see all my sober peeps and raise money for a good cause. i'm looking forward to more comaraderie tomorrow! i'm very grateful for lambda today

Friday, February 12, 2010

it was a good day today! spent some time with my mom today. she has helped me out so much lately. i had a chance to show her some common courtesy today by making my bed (i spent the nite) and cleaning the kitchen after she made me breakfast and lunch. you know what...i almost didn't do it then i thought to myself what the hell is wrong with you!!??!! i guess i finally realised today i'm not a spoiled teenager anymore who deserves to be pampered because my childhood wasn't like the beaver's! i'm only 45! duh! better late than never i suppose. i'm grateful for my mom today and my program
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

good day. knocked out the gym, a meeting, cooked myself a nice dinner, and cleaned the kitchen. i was kinda bummed to find out today that the financial aid i've been working on for school doesn't apply to this semester. i should have applied for the 09-10 not the 10-11. oh well....worked out for the best. wouldn't have qualified anyway cause i made too much money in 08. so now i'm way ahead of the game for the fall semester and my life should be more settled by then. i think this was God helping me out. as excited i was about school i don't think i'm quite ready. i'm watching a cute gay movie. one of the guys is an alcoholic. figures! the solitude at my apt tonite is wonderful. the ex went out. yay!! i'm grateful today for life with all it's ups and downs.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

beautiful weather today=a great mood for the most part. i did get some stuff acomplished. sometimes i feel like i get stuck in a rut. i'm bored but kind of paralyzed even though i have stuff i need to get done and i know it will make me feel better to get it done. is that a run-on sentence or what?? this ex situation is grating on my nerves. i don't know how long i can live in a one bedroom apartment with someone who isn't speaking to me. i'm grateful today for my program and all that comes with it. i like the person i am slowly but surely becoming.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

today was a good day. i should start trying to do this earlier. i'm so tired now i can barely type. it was a beautiful day today...i feel closer to God on days like today. went roller skating, not blading, today in memorial park. damn that was hard but good exercise. i haven't been on skates like that in a very long time. got to hang with my sober friend billy. it was good. went to a good speaker meeting..long winded but he spoke well and from the heart i believe. i even did a couple of yoga moves and went to the gym. tomorrow is my mom's birthday...it's hard to believe she'll be 78. well i guess that's already today huh? i'm grateful for my mom, sis, kids, and A.A. peeps. missing dan tonite very much. but i feel ok about it and everything else in life. it was nice and serene all by my lonesome tonite at my apartment watching a chick flick with doodlebug. good night

Thursday, February 4, 2010

great day!! had some work done on the bronco, still trying to figure out this financial aid bull, ate well, yoga, gym, & talked to my cutie from austin. he's hot & sober!! it's 12:30 am and the ex is m.i.a. it's total bliss to have this solitude right now. hope he's getting laid. my dog is dreaming/barking in his sleep...so funny. i'm grateful today for my program and all the great things and people that come w/it!! like dAAve...thanks! thank u GOD for all my blessings which are many....good nite
well it's been a weird couple of days. the austin roundup was great!!! it still amazes me that so many people with a common bond get together like that and can have so much fun sober! i really want to do the right things these days and one thing i had been putting off for various reasons i finally took care of. i ended my relationship with my live in boyfriend. i knew i needed to do it for awhile. he's a great person but we're on two totally different pages. my sponsor says i need to look for my higher power in my life in this situation and every day life. i would have put the break up off longer but after coming home from the round up i just couldn't pretend anymore. so i know God is helping me with that. i know it's going to be hard to stay sober living on my own. i've been so co-dependent all my life. but i'm looking forward to the challenge and the change. today i'm grateful for everything i'm learning in my program, my sponsor, all the great people i'm meeting in the program, and my family. thanks ya'll!!!